Scarlet XXX

How can it be that you exist in the world as ten times the artist I am—and not understand it. I can see you through the mist. I can feel your gaze when it glances over. I smell your tears when they fall. We are forever connected you and I. Yet, when I feel your desire I am overwhelmed by the compulsion to remind you…you made your own decisions.

Scarlet XXIX

Your words hold power no one fully comprehends, choose them wisely lest they confuse you for a demon rather than the angel your nature calls forth.

Scarlet XXVIII

We could touch down softly in white robes and it still wouldn’t be enough.

Scarlet XXVII

Every step towards you was one step closer to the best parts of me and a step further from the worst. It’s 33 minutes till midnight and the best parts of you are the things that occupy the silence. Every step was one closer to the real me…not the the numbed version of who I was. That in itself was a beautiful path to walk—and I would walk it again.

Scarlet XXVI

You were the deepest part of the river.

Scarlet XXV

We were high as the heavens and there was no magic bullet that could preserve the moment. No matter how many times I pulled the trigger, heaven was fated to slip away in the haze of the morning fog.

Scarlet XXVI

I can feel the memories of you slipping through the fingers of my heart. It is both tragic and a blessing in one. Like someone is gently rubbing aloe on an open wound.

Scarlet XXV

I can still hear my name falling from your lips.

Scarlet XXIV

34,000 words into a new world and in the silence I found you sitting in the corner of the room and realized I had to start over.

Scarlet XXIII

I never expected to break a black heart of gold, but here I am. Most of the changes were for the best—but not all of them.

Scarlet XXII

In a strange way I owe you a debt of gratitude for saving me from a lifetime of heartbreak. Now, it just burns day and night.

Scarlet XXI

Breathe deep love, everything is going to be alright.

Scarlet XX

I had a big win today. Somehow the win wasn’t everything that it would have been with you here.

Scarlet XIX

“Wait…I think you smoked crack…” I said

“I might have…shit…it was just some white shit in a pipe being passed around—I just wanted to be included,” she said.

“…you definitely smoked crack.”

“…shit!”

Scarlet XVIII

You were a hand grenade and I was so worried about dropping it I didn’t notice the spoon sailing across the room.

Scarlet XVII

The water is rising, the waves are crashing all around, and desperately I search for the shore.

Scarlet XVI

You are as present as the rise and fall of the tides.

Scarlet XV

We were simply two comets traversing the sky. I reached out and found your hand in mine. Somehow I thought, if I just hang on, everything will be okay. Neither of us could hold off that much gravity. I would do it all over again. Some with pain is better than none at all.

Scarlet XIV

We swung and we missed it.

But missing doesn’t make the attempt less glorious.

It was glorious.

Scarlet XIII

There’s a new version of you who visits my dreams every night. The truth is that you, will always, be the one who calls forth the storm that sleeps within. It matters not how many years pass by—it will always be Ü.